And you also know the other side… You are simply human, you live your life and you reach your limits. You have to deal with the world as it is, in which in so many places a different wind is blowing than what you have already experienced and what you dream of. Like everyone else, you are stuck in the demands of survival and the limits of your personality and capacity. And so often you feel like you are in a world, in a life, that is OK, but which is actually NOT right for you, however beautiful it may be.

That’s the gap.

The gap between old and new.
The gap between where things are going to and how they still are.

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I believe that many people know such experiences, such visits from God, visits from the future or the origins of humanity. Moments of realization, of insight, of coming into contact with something that feels pure, coherent, simply RIGHT.

What distinguishes a pioneer from others is that they take these moments seriously. That they don’t tuck them away and forget them, dismissing them as dreams or unrealistic. Nor do they shove them into the “less important” drawer and pursue other things. What makes a pioneer is that these moments are given weight, which puts them in the pole position of his inner orientation: they are number one. These moments are the most valuable thing he knows – and he allows them to shape, determine and guide his life.

These people do exist and if you are one of them, then you know what I’m talking about.

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These are people who have been given the gift of deep insight into where humanity is going, or CAN go. Who have received qualities in their hearts that reach far beyond what we are currently experiencing collectively. Who carry in their bellies the seeds of a world where peace reigns, where conscious unity is experienced, where joy and creativity characterize life as NORMAL. In which life is supported by such different principles than we do on this planet so far.

These people are also characterized by the fact that they don’t go away. Nor do they take refuge in illusory worlds – of spirituality, consumption or seclusion. They probably have a tendency to do this or have had times in their lives when this happened and was important. But at the bottom of their hearts they are HERE, live on EARTH and love people – or learn ever more deeply to transform their pain into love.

Because as a pioneer, you are always in pain. The world as it is hurts you. You hurt yourself as you often are. It hurts you to have smelled the carrot and to simply not be able to grasp it in so many places. You stretch yourself, go through your processes, learn and learn, shed your skin, transform and transmute until you drop, move on, learn, fall down and get up again, widen your heart and get disappointed again, and go on, on, on, on.

It’s not always nice, sometimes it’s really fuc**** hard. Sometimes it’s almost deadly, really, and you know that’s not a joke… it really is. But somehow you’ve also picked up this crazy trait that you keep going – as crazy as that may seem to others – and especially to you. You continue to go your own way – and only YOU know why. And sometimes you forget that too, until someone reminds you who you are, who holds you when you can no longer hold on.

As a pioneer, you have moments when you just wish you were “normal”, like the others, when it seems easier to live with the way things are. You reproach yourself for being so complicated, for not accepting life, for always wanting it to be different, for not fitting in anywhere, for always wanting to move on, for never really finding peace – at least not on the outside. Yes, there are these moments. And then… there is always the momentum towards you, towards your innermost truth, towards your soul that is calling you and you know: whatever comes and the others say whatever they want – I KNOW where I am heading and it just feels so right that I am crazy enough to believe in it and go for it. Over and over again. THAT’S ME, that’s me.

And then you go further.
Step by step.
Connected with you.
Connected to the spaces that call to your soul.
Towards something that, in case of doubt, perhaps only you know.
Letting yourself find those who belong to you.
Letting go of those who no longer belong to you.
Giving you moments of grace.
Giving you challenges that sometimes almost overwhelm you.
Letting you grow.
Again and again and again.

And that’s exactly how being a pioneer works. You are a cell on the evolutionary edge of humanity. And as such, you wear the diamonds of the new and are also cut like a diamond: Under enormous pressure. This is your life – and this is your “completely normal”.

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And that’s why I wrote this text – to encourage you to make this gap, this “being worn down” easier. To hear: This is normal. And even though you probably know that, it’s always good to hear: “There are others out there who are like that too. They know that. I’m not as alone as I thought.”

Yes, you are not alone.
We are many.

And we are all learning something here that does not yet exist. We are giving birth to a world that we do not know and that has never existed before. We are the ones who let go of the old and pave the way through the unknown – because we know the smell of the air of the world we want to enter. And because we always take the step to follow this new scent.

That’s how it is.
Pioneers.
Sniffing noses of the New World.